We had a preacher come to our church recently and he gave the best message. It made me realize just how negative I am. It is true that today we live in a negative world, and it is easy to fall into that mindset. For example, every month I worry about paying our bills and whether or not we will make it and still have money left. The foolish thing is that every month we always come out on top. So, why do I worry so much? Instead of giving things to God and saying, "it is well," I choose to worry, fret, and nag my husband. We have no debt, and God has blessed us with a good job. Still, it seems if all I see is what could go wrong and what will be coming in a few months. I know we have many doctor bills coming with the new baby in a few months. I know that we will need to find a home to buy this upcoming year. I know that we need much more in savings than we have. A very smart person once told me that the days will pass whether I'm doing anything or not. So why should I let those days pass worrying over something that doesn't exist yet? It is smart to plan for the future, but I tend to be a little bit obsessive about it.
I really want to try to learn to look at things in a more positive light. It won't be easy, but with God's help I know it's possible. It shouldn't matter if it's family problems, health issues, or money concerns. God has never failed me. So why do I question Him so much?
I never saw myself as a negative person until I heard that message. I truly want to be that person that can encourage others and look past what is, to what can be.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Growing Up
I'm trying to teach my little girl how to feed herself with a spoon. It's a funny and messy experience. However, once she got the idea, she was so excited to feed herself. She'd grab the spoon, put it in her mouth, and just smile. Of course, she lost some of her oatmeal smiling too!
Most days I look forward to seeing my little family grow. Then, there are the other days. Those days when my husband works late, my little girl has done everything to get on my nerves, and the house seems to be falling apart. On those days, I look at our two bedroom duplex and wonder if I can possibly manage to make everyone and everything fit. Didn't our mom's make it look easy?
Today...is one of THOSE days!
Most days I look forward to seeing my little family grow. Then, there are the other days. Those days when my husband works late, my little girl has done everything to get on my nerves, and the house seems to be falling apart. On those days, I look at our two bedroom duplex and wonder if I can possibly manage to make everyone and everything fit. Didn't our mom's make it look easy?
Today...is one of THOSE days!
Friday, September 10, 2010
It's a Girl!
Yes, we just found out we're having another girl. We're very excited. My husband is calling himself "a ladies man," and I will simply love dressing up another little girl. Our one year old of course understands none of this. She will be in for quite the shock when she wakes up with a new roommate one morning!
I was also happy to hear that as of right now everything looks great with my little girl. God has blessed me tremendously by giving me a healthy pregnancy with my first daughter. I am praying that this one will fly by as easily as the first! Having a medical condition and being on medication is a great hardship in times like these. Knowing the problems that could arise or the defects that the medication may cause on my baby is very difficult to handle. There's that constant worry until I actually see my baby for myself. It helps that there are doctors that specialize in high-risk pregnancies. It's a comfort to hear a doctor tell me that everything looks right.
We are very thankful that everything seems to be going smoothly for the time being. Praise the Lord!
I was also happy to hear that as of right now everything looks great with my little girl. God has blessed me tremendously by giving me a healthy pregnancy with my first daughter. I am praying that this one will fly by as easily as the first! Having a medical condition and being on medication is a great hardship in times like these. Knowing the problems that could arise or the defects that the medication may cause on my baby is very difficult to handle. There's that constant worry until I actually see my baby for myself. It helps that there are doctors that specialize in high-risk pregnancies. It's a comfort to hear a doctor tell me that everything looks right.
We are very thankful that everything seems to be going smoothly for the time being. Praise the Lord!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Special Milestone!
This last week has been an exciting time. I haven't had a seizure for a whole year! Praise the Lord! It is a wonderful blessing to have gone this long. Now to start counting down until next year.
I've never said much about my epilepsy. I was 18 and a freshman in college. A very hard time to be told all the things you can't do anymore. I had to be seizure free for 6 months before I could drive. I didn't drive for over a year. I spent that time being driven around by my mom. It was hard, but she never complained.
When the test results came back, the doctors told us that they had never seen a scan that bad. Quite impressive right? Then they started the medication. It was a long time until they figured out exactly what would work for me. The side effects were pretty bad. I turned into a not so nice person. I was mean and a real grouch. Finally my parents had me talk to our pastor. Basically I had to pick myself up and grow up. It wasn't easy at first, but with God's help my family and I have made it through it.
The hardest part is knowing that I'll never be the same person I used to be. Epilepsy has changed everything for me. My first date with my boyfriend, who's now my husband, I had to tell him about it. He handled it so well. It didn't change anything for him. My friends from college were the same way. I was blessed to have people around me who didn't treat as someone who was weird or a freak. It was hardest telling my bosses and teachers. They showed much more concern and asked a lot of questions.
There's much more to this story that I'll have to tell later. I had many hard times, and I had many good times.
I've never said much about my epilepsy. I was 18 and a freshman in college. A very hard time to be told all the things you can't do anymore. I had to be seizure free for 6 months before I could drive. I didn't drive for over a year. I spent that time being driven around by my mom. It was hard, but she never complained.
When the test results came back, the doctors told us that they had never seen a scan that bad. Quite impressive right? Then they started the medication. It was a long time until they figured out exactly what would work for me. The side effects were pretty bad. I turned into a not so nice person. I was mean and a real grouch. Finally my parents had me talk to our pastor. Basically I had to pick myself up and grow up. It wasn't easy at first, but with God's help my family and I have made it through it.
The hardest part is knowing that I'll never be the same person I used to be. Epilepsy has changed everything for me. My first date with my boyfriend, who's now my husband, I had to tell him about it. He handled it so well. It didn't change anything for him. My friends from college were the same way. I was blessed to have people around me who didn't treat as someone who was weird or a freak. It was hardest telling my bosses and teachers. They showed much more concern and asked a lot of questions.
There's much more to this story that I'll have to tell later. I had many hard times, and I had many good times.
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